I've come to the realization that much of my journey is spiritual. Perhaps it always has been, and perhaps that is how it was always meant to be. What else can help us better understand those abstract fears which cling to our hearts - of purpose, of creation, of death - than to surrender to the spirit? It is these fears which have long driven me to shy away from spiritual exploration, lest the answer be even more terrifying than even my fears could imagine. Despite this, I am forever drawn to those dark, unanswered questions. Questions I've had ever since I was old enough to have questions at all. My experience and fears do not come from a void, however. I was raised one way, and slowly introduced to more ways as I grew older. Like many curious minds, I was raised in a Christian family. I have great love and respect for the teachings of Jesus, but I often felt something was missing...either from the religion itself or from the community in which I lived. Either way, I felt